Yesterday was very hard for me. With the Holiday season in full gear I have not been paying enough attention to my emotions nor enough effort into my program.
I was at work last night. My head was consumed with my worries, fears and insanity-I panicked. I was so frightened and couldn't stop crying as the committee in my head begged and pleaded for a drink. I wanted anything to stop the crazy voices and felt Iextremely powerless. I didn't pick up, by the grace of God.
Last night, my moment of insanity, is what I have feared the most in the last 14 months. This is what has happened every time I have relapsed. On the bright side, one of my worst fears happened, and I didn't drink over it. Today is not day 1 for me. I am safe, I am loved, and I am taken care of.
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This is a blog about my journey through sobriety and my twenties (the real adolescence). 2000 miles from home and living in Los Angeles I am learning how to live each day one at a time and find a balance between my dreams and reality...
2 comments:
I felt the same way yesterday...something in the air? Good for you for staying strong!
Blessings to you...and tomorrow is a new day (thank God!).
So proud of you, my friend!! You did face a big fear and it didn't take you down like it has in the past...if that isn't growth, then I don't know what is. I heart you.
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